~just a feeling~

~true nv~

hey

been very long since ive posted

been what they call it

busy

haha

yeah todays post is special

its gonna reveal what i fear

besides height that is

haha

well here goes

ans these qns

am i ur fren

am i a gd fren

am i boring

am i someone u can rely on

am i someone u can depend for help

if i am for at least one

am i gd enough for u

gd enough to accompany u

gd enough that u will not make me feel left out

coz i cant bare to feel that im not doin what u expect of me

thats why im depressed more often now

if u realise that is

i try to mask it

but no promises

tell me if im not gd enough

dont question me if im secretive

thats why i dont feel u trust me enough to help u

and i expect u to help me

so there

end

~MAI~

~mid killer course~

~true nv~

well as u guys might or rather should noe

the mid course is here n will end soon

yes but why do i feel stress now

is it because i didnt do what i thought i could and would

darn

hate tis feeling

well raya is here for three more weeks

yes after mc can celebrate fully without any afterthoughts

i would like to take this opportunity to ask for ur forgiveness

if i had done anything that hurt u whether directly or not

please forgive me

i will forgive if u do

hopefully we both forgive each other

thx

end

~MAI should i~