~rain~

~true nv~

-rain-

hey

people

hows life been??

good?

bad?

anyways just an update of what i did yesterday

went with my mom and lil' bro

to a family picnic at changi beach

we thought hey why not go after the rain

and we did

then after we reach and i had a dip in the

sea (phobia still)

it began to drizzle

wind began to blow stronger

and the rain decided to become heavier

so as my mom seek shelter in the tent

i ended up sitting on the ground under the canvas

with majority of my relatives

it lasted too long

as i sat there dozing off here and there

haha but it was fun overall

don't know what's going to happen today

i think we will be going out too

perhaps not

but we'll see

anyways yup just wanted to update

so have fun

take care

smile always

bye

~izan~

~too much~

~true nv~

-too much-

hey

peeps

howz you all doing?

fine i hope

haha

so all this free time at home made

me realise something

ouh and a few videos later

that i tend to say things that kinda

make people feel hurt/offended/insulted...

so the list goes on and on...

and one might wonder

now you realise?

haha

well things happen for a reason

i just don't know what it is yet

anyways change might just come my way

with this holiday period

self control is in my priority list

and so is pretty much a lot of stuffs

though this might not be the best

way to do it

but i would like to take this opportunity

to apologise for my wrong doings

and if you feel betrayed by me

truly am sorry

so do tell me nicely that i'm stepping over the line

cause i tend to take it better if you don't do it in a

'you think you're better then me but you're not so stfu'

kind of way

ouh and to those i offended

due to the fact in don't wear my specs often

i'm sorry for appearing

cocky/arrogant/bustard/superior

as i tend to radiate that impression

if i feel uncomfortable

shy or a combination of both

though i'm not trying to use ti as an excuse

but as a reasoning to why i might appear as such

to people

the problem is noted though

but it will help if you guys don't have an impression that i am

gay/weak/soft/sissy/and labels associated with those words mentioned

cause i don't need

those

enough is enough i don't need more than what i had in

primary

secondary

jc and even at work

certainly not in poly

so we all have flaws

it's not about me dealing with your flaws

but its us working on to reduce the flaws

to make ourselves a more rounded person

i feel

so i will try to improve myself

rather then telling people to deal with it

cause ego won't get me far

ok sorry for sounding 'all knowing'

but it's true right?

so take care

enjoy life

live life

smile always

bye

~izan~