~i just can't live lie~

~true nv~

hey
long time wasn't it
i know i know
juz been busy with sch and all
imagine geog test 30mins before econs test
for me its horrible

okay as the title says
it has been okae in a rather awkward way
you know since someone knows my darkest secret
but it made things rather easy
less burden i say

its funny how someone can know me so well
haha
hate it sometimes
but people adapt right
arif would be smirking right now
haha

he's true
ppl adapt
and soon i will to in the view that the dark side is recruiting ppl
haha
don't look at the dark side

why not look at me instead
haha
okay don't need to stare
haha
ending off
see ya

~MAI~

~is it too late to apologize~~

~true nv~

hey
to all that i have hurt and wasted breath on
i wish to ask for ur forgiveness
i feel so bad and stupid now
seriously

i cannot express how sorry i am in words
unfortunately i prefer a one on one forgiving session
i have approach some of u that i feel i have hurt the most
yet i haven't approach the most important person
tmr maybe

aargh
feel so stupid
dang
now it's so weird
to see closeness at far

~MAI~

~kindness i have little ~

~true nv~

Halim
yes you
i envy u seh
baik sangat gitulah

haha
i donno whether u like being praised all the time
cause i would not
haha
jkjk

u very lucky seh
u can manage to control anger
and i never see u hurt someone
so good
i wish i can do that

will not give up
yah
haha
but dah lambat dah merajuk dah marah
dah sakitkan dah menyusahkan
they still remember and bring it up

sedih
haha
nooooooooo
reformation has started

hehe
got to say i envy u seh
but i think thats enough
don wan to make u feel tk sedap
sorry

but bravo
u have my respect

~MAI~

~it hurts well i can't show~

~true nv~

shut up and let me go
this hurts i tell you so
the last time u say me in bits
so shut up and let me go

haha
see-saw life
fair as ever
guess Arif is correct
a good day will have an equally bad day to follow

haha
well i guess that's life
funny in how it is fair
but cannot merajuk
later ppl don't like

haha
tats why i'm happy
haha
really
serious

hehe
haha
hoho
huhu

~MAI~

~bye lollipop~

~true nv~

hey
long time never post
today's post is rather an upbeat one
as you can see by the title itself
haha

great day yesterday
i lost congkak to Arif lots of time
embarrassing seh
the scoreline 9-3
8 of which i lost in a row

snap
haha
good time finally
miss those days
haha

on a lesser queer note
wait a minute
aargh hmmph
MAN
haha

i want to eat whooper
texas man
haha

~MAI~

~how to say i'm sorry~

~true nv~

hey
i feel so darn stupid now
all these while i was angry for no reason
hurt my friends
and lost my best friend

the best friend part still unsure
i hope i'm wrong
nothing is worst for me to go through this again
last year was the first i think
i don't want it to happen this year'

damn
darn
argh
snap
aaaaargh

cannot believe that i'm so dumb
all these while
shit
my god why
i'm both happy and scared

help
i want to know
dang
oh shit
freakin' hell

~MAI~how long?

~today in history~

~true nv~

today was a fun day
did my pw with my ever hardworking teammates
and then i did geog
well that happens later that night
laughs

after the project meeting that Herda came also
why dont ask me
joking joking
we went to watch movie
the 'love guru'
that was fun

after that we when to arcade
Nad was furious that the machine was spoil
but she kicked the hell out of who knows what
laughs

then we took the expensive pictures
i shall not comment on how i look
besides being good looking
it's hard to find any flaws
laughs

you don't need to laugh or comment
i could be joking but who says i'm not
laughs
guess i'm ending this too
the end

~MAI~

~class bbq~

~true nv~

yesterday was a great day for me
my class had a bbq at Sarah's house
not actually in her house but her condo
not her condo but
u get the picture right

the whole class cannot attend unfortunately
that leaves a few of us and some people from other places
funny isn't it
well i dont think so
well it was fun

i was the first to arrive
ironic as i am the one usually late
regardless for school or other occasions
well that shows i have changed
i hope it last
don't laugh

well it ended on a higher note than i expected
good
if not it will be dreadful when i remember it
ouch it hurts just thinking of it
seriously why are you laughing

okay then i guess this is it
i'm ending this post and moving on to the next one
so there i am ending it
the end

~MAI~

~afraid not what i fear~

~true nv~

today is a rather off yet fun day i had
knowing that rubbish is still useful when recycle
yet not knowing how the rubbish feels to change
according to the needs of people

haha
jk
chill u know what life sure is fun when fun people are around
it matters not who u are
all that matters is that u are tall smart and does not cry
lol

tat was another joke
i might not be tall but i am rather smart i think
haha
cry i do not
wait
everyone cries

oh man
haha
still conflicting inside i guess
but things looks good
yes

open the door in front of u
to see whats inside
close the door behind u
forget whats inside
all u will see is future

deliver urself with care
fragile u are n see whether they care
if u r weak u will not survive
they will leave u without a second thought
so choose your juorney
look towards the future or juz remain in the past
see whether u will survive

~MAI~

~Happy Birthday~

~true nv~

today was fun
Happy Birthday Singapore 43rd
hope u have a pleasant journey ahead
live sure will be adventurous in the future

~MAI~

~a new awakening~

~true nv~

'welcome to my humble beginning'

true enough as the title says
this marks a new beginning
awakening
let's start

as an official shift from schoolboy35
if u do not know it is my livejournal
now lets seriously start

jc life is adventurous
full of fun and sorrow
but i manage to pull through with some great help from
you know who
thanks very much appreciate it

now the battle rages on
haha
jk
actually
haha

upbeat tempo now
if im happy and u know it msg me
haha
seriuosly my hp not ringing
haha

half of my friends or somewhere there is in jc
so they mean a lot to me
and i continue searching for my best friend
as you guys might know i tend to need a best friend
so far theres one person

hehe

wanna know who?
cannot
haha
ask me if u dare

lol

till nxt time

~MAI~