~the night we ruled the world~

~true nv~

if u guys didnt noe

me and halim went on air

on the 25th sept

on ria fm

coolness

it was fun yet i was nervous

now the whole world noes

haha

i tried to sing

too soft i guess

darn

haha

but i got too be a dj for a day

cool

get to hear my voice on air

though its not nice

haha

halim was great

gd dj voice

we were baku

haha

cool

haha

will remember tat day

when we ruled the world

~still empty~

~might be too late but i'm happy i woke up~

~true nv~

hey
for all of u who have been constantly reading my blog
thx
been a while since i put up post of my own
n not lyrics
though it has meanings

haha
now lets get to it
i got a wake up call from my friend
like juz woke up from coma awake
no offence intended
but ya

however it seemed that my efforts have been futile
sad
but i think it is for the best
im not funny
im not smart
im not brave
im not religious
im not me

well to tell u the truth
i have tried to be someone else
someone who i thought i was but now im not
so guess wad
im now a changing man
haha

true
im not lying
but i hope my friends able to accept
what im going to do
what im sacrificing for
its for ur own good

i noe its sad
i don wanna lose my friends
probably will
but it is something i must try to do
for myself
for once

im sorry
especially to me
for betraying myself
lying to myself
hurting myself

if only i have someone to talk to now
in the past i did
now no more
maybe its my fault
probably is

but i really need someone now
to hug her
to tell i love her
but why all end up in friendship
its sad
its pathetic

well i guess its juz me
well i noe life is unfair
to me n everyone
but is it too much to ask
for someone to love me in return

this is deep
but i wanna noe
rejection is not pretty
nor is it fun
sigh

haha
why am i sad
i donno
its pathetic of me
but i cant help it
sad

but i will change as i said before
so watch out ppl
its an all out war

~wonder what will fill this space~

~sorry~

~true nv~

I know you think that I shouldn't still love you 
I'll tell you that 
But if I didn't say it 
Well, I'd still have felt it 
Where's the sense in that? 

I promise I'm not trying to make your life harder 
Or return to where we were 

Well I will go down with this ship 
And I won't put my hands up and surrender 
There will be no white flag above my door 
I'm in love and always will be 

I know I left too much mess 
And destruction to come back again 
And I caused but nothing but trouble 
I understand if you can't talk to me again 
And if you live by the rules of "It's over" 
Then I'm sure that that makes sense 

Well I will go down with this ship 
And I won't put my hands up and surrender 
There will be no white flag above my door 

I'm in love and always will be 

And when we meet 
As I'm sure we will 
All that was then 
Will be there still 
I'll let it pass 
And hold my tongue 
And you will think 
That I've moved on 

Well I will go down with this ship 
And I won't put my hands up and surrender 
There will be no white flag above my door 
I'm in love and always will be 

~MAI~

~metronome~

~true nv~

hey

moving through a transition from formal to informal

i'm sick

got cough and running nose

sigh

econs is dreadful

but i think i can do it

no i must be determined to do it

haha

gear one shifted

gear two attained

gear three tried

i guess gear four is just too much

cool

haha

that is MINE

repeat that over and over again

MINE MINE MINE

ending off

~MAI~

~a moment of silence, a lifetime of memories~

~true nv~

hello

today i will be taking a rather formal tone

lets remember who we have lost

and take our time to cherish who we still have

*moment of silence*

...

...

...

...

...

thank you

lets pray that our love ones are safe and healthy

remember that nothing is forever

and forever is ignorance

live life not because that you are forced to

live life because you want to and have the privilege to do so

i shall end this post with a short phrase

'no matter how hard and long the journey is,

it can disappear in an instant if you let it be a memory' 

~MAI~

~cold shoulder~

~true nv~

You say it’s all in my head
And the things I think just don’t make sense
So where you been then? Don’t go all coy
Don’t turn it round on me like it’s my fault
See I can see that look in your eyes
The one that shoots me each and every time

You grace me with your cold shoulder
Whenever you look at me I wish I was her
You shower me with words made of knives
Whenever you look at me I wish I was her

These days when I see you
You make it look like I’m see through
Do tell me why you waste our time
When your heart ain’t admitting you’re not satisfied
You know I know just how you feel
I’m starting to find myself feeling that way too

When you grace me with your cold shoulder
Whenever you look at me I wish I was her
You shower me with words made of knives
Whenever you look at me I wish I was her

Time and time again, I play the role of fool .. just for you
Even in the daylight when you’re dreaming .. I see you
Try to look for things I hear but our eyes never find
‘though I do know how you play

You grace me with your cold shoulder
Whenever you look at me I wish I was her
You shower me with words made of knives
Whenever you look at me I wish I was her

You grace me with your cold shoulder
Whenever you look at me I wish I was her
You shower me with words made of knives
Whenever you look at me I wish I was her

~MAI~

~i got no hole in my shoe, just a big hole in my world~

~true nv~

hey

the title is long i know

wish it could be shorter

but wishes doesn't have to come true right

haha

okay

lets get down to business

as my previous post have said enough

it still bites to know that i still want to know whether she likes me

sigh

coz if one day she wakes up and finds thats she's missing me

then her heart starts to wonder where on earth i could be

sigh

disturbing

i know

sometimes laughter

sometimes silence

i shall not say more

must stop telling you guys my feelings

i know there's a delete button

shut up

end

~MAI~

~heartbroken~

~true nv~

hey
if you guys didn't know
i like this girl
it doesn't matter who
it matters not

but the ACERs day really broke my heart
i have had feelings for her
but that really did it
utter rejection
wake up call

maybe i'm the one at fault
due to the 'soft' way i portray myself
darn
shit
snap

sigh

~MAI~

~answer this~

~true nv~

why did u ask me those questions
it was a mistake
a horrible mistake
lol
haha

jkjk
but still want to know
it does affect things right
i believe so myself
darn

but all of you need not know what this is
a secret for me to know solely
haha

~MAI~

~Fasting and Terawih~

~true nv~

hey...
yesterday i went for the 1st terawih but today i didn't
yesterday was okay
today i had to finish my gp hw
haha
waste

fasting today was good
manage to survive haha
start of a brand new beginning
a better me i hope
hopefully it comes true

tmr have dreadful geog lect
darn
i love geog and all
but darn
hate to come back to sch

have to study like seriously
if not bye bye J2
sigh
haha

~MAI~