~new~

~true nv~

-new-

hey

how are you doing?

fine?

well?

good

if you are sick

i wish you well

if you are well

i wish you sick

sheesh can't you take a joke?

well

new

new school?

new friends?

new background?

yes

i am thinking of a new skin

blogskin

i just got tired of this

black-looking one

haiz

so tell me what to do

noooooooooooo!

not that

haiz good help is so hard

haha

tag ok?

i've been missing tags

no its not lost

just lacks people that view me

haha

wait

thats not funny

sob sob sob

haha

~MAI~

~ever dream~

~true nv~

-ever dream-

hey
its me again
i know no one reads this
apart from lat and maybe zul
no one else reads it ya?

so no use begginglah kan
but pleeeeeaaaaassssssssseeee
haha
in my dreams unfortunately
yeah

crapping again
and again
i was actualy thinking of typing more words per line
but later like no uniqueness to the rest of dull and duller places
oh oh gosh

haha
coolness
so i will stick to
short and maybe sweet
lines

wait
sweet?
you taste before is it?
haha
lameness

~MAI~

~pretences~

~true nv~

-pretences-

hey

it has been a while hasn't it?

i think it has

and what a week it has and

going to be

yes back to the topic

pretences

we would know what it means

if not

google it

haha

so now you should know

right?

well go ahead and be lazy

haha

sometimes i set or we set

pretences

to be happy with the way

things are

its our nature

hehe

i should stop with

all this self professed

intellectual

should i?

okay

lets just be 'santai'

today i had a tiring day

be it P.E or just gym-ing

haha ouwww

but who knows

the next 'melting' dude

is yours truly

hahaha

hey its a possibility

though not in any future

lol

but must be optimistic

must must must

op op op ti ti ti mi mi mi stic stic stic

~MAI~

~lego syndrome~

~true nv~

-lego syndrome-

hey

how you guys doing?

fine i hope

well we all know what i am going

to post about right?

i hope you do

it is about my msn nick

yes it's 'lego syndrome'

i thought you guys may

be wondering what the heck!?

haha

coolness

now i will explain

ready?

ok!

gosh i sounded

like syak

haha

go IJ139!

my name Hafizan eh jangan lupa!

haha

jkjk

well lego is something

abstract that can be changed

numerous times

so 'lego syndrome'

is actually my own

label for change

where we have the power to change

as the building blocks are within us

so judge what you shouldn't

be who you should

if people only want happiness

then they should

but give them only that

they might not accept sadness

thats not they are here for

they want what makes them happy

they will leave what makes them sad

thats life so deal with it

it is harsh

it is truth

it is reality

it is life

it is temporary

it comes and goes

they keep what is happy

and throws what is hard and sad

good friends stay and try to restore

they come very rare

i am not pointing out to anyone

not even myself for that matter

all i want is to make you guys think

have you been fair?

have you been true?

~MAI~

~so now it's official~

~true nv~

-so now it's official-

hey

if you guys haven't known

i had applied for six courses in

all a few polytechnics

why?

well

i feel that with my current

rate in understanding math

i will fail my a'level math

so that is why i chose to do so

i will miss my friends

though i hope we keep in touch

i will miss you guys dearly

why didn't anyone stopped me?

why?

haha

well it's my decision

and i will stick with it

but i hope things could have been

maybe a bit different (retaining)

haha

well that's life

you get what you are given

no questions asked

miss you already

~MAI~

~dreading love~

~true nv~

-dreading love-

hey

how are my loving people doing?

loving?

doing?

haha

well

i just gone through

my first day as a JC2 student

meeting new STs and CT

some i like and vice versa

i love particularly

geography and economics

hate especially

mathematics and general paper

haha

though i might not hate the subject

emphasizing on might

haha

i'am not yet a fan of their styles

of teaching

so maybe time will tell

and i hope time treats all of us

well enough

*halo above my head*

haha

this is making my decision

rather harder and tougher

what decision?

well a secret of course

but some people know already

coolness is a word

as it wasn't marked red

when i typed it

so yeah i know it's obvious

that it's a word so shut up

sob sob sob

haha

well i'am disliking

my situation but i know

it determines where i go

~MAI~

~surprise surprise~

~true nv~

-surprise surprise-

hey

i have a surprise lined up

for a few people

before i unfold

my latest plan

this is seriously

the hugest thing i am planning

and it's a big fat secret

wahaha

it's so cool

it might take place this month

maybe next month

but hopefully

it will take place

just don't know when

i am feeling super excited

sad a bit but super excited

haha

it's like

wow wow wow WOW

i have a big secret

yes i do

i have a big secret

how about you

haha

~MAI~

~give me one moment in time~

~true nv~

~give me one moment in time~

hey

heard of that song before?

no?

well youtube it

wonderful lyrics

i'll go for the Grammy performance

super nice super fantastic

listen carefully

the lyrics are wonderful

well written

if you managed to understand

the soul of it

congratulations

you understand what

i pursue in life

~MAI~

~time~

~true nv~

hey

just something

i want to share

random songs

random words

=============================

forgive

sounds good

forget

im not sure

i could

=============================

they say

time heals

everything

but im still

waiting

=============================

im through

with doubt

theres nothing

left for me

to figure out

=============================

i paid

a price

and i will

keep

paying

=============================

im not ready to make nice

im not ready to back down

im still made as hell

and i dont have time to go

round and round and round

=============================

its too late to make it right

probably wouldnt if i could

cause im mad as hell cant

bring myself to do what

it is you think i should

=============================

~MAI~

~how i wish~

~true nv~

hey

i hope you are

reading this

cause i really

want things to be better

=============================

there is no reason

why i should keep

messaging you

when you do not

reply at all

=============================

but i feel that

i need to regain what i lost

cause i feel

you do not feel it

by the way you are reacting

=============================

i might be making

another mistake by

posting this

but if you wont talk

i hope you read

=============================

i broke your heart

and you feel the gain

to taste the sweet

i faced the pain

but the taste remains bitter

=============================

you might be happier

than ever before

i am glad

but at least tell me

you are not talking to me anymore

=============================

so if you do no want

what i am offering

please say so

forget about the past

cause you do not seem to care

=============================

it makes me feel desperate

i made my mistakes

but i changed

and you clearly

not seeing that

=============================

so this is my final attempt

to make you understand

that i have changed

and i am offering a fresh start

and this offer will not last

=============================

~MAI~

~unbelievable~

~true nv~

hey

i suddenly

feel

like

laughing maniacally

=============================

it is because

i have found

that is has

relieving

properties

=============================

i cannot believe

it was what i can use

whenever i feel sad

angry or just crazy

it works

=============================

love that feeling

when all my problems

just dissapear

for a moment

just laugh it away

=============================

it comes in handy

when the going gets tough

hafizan gets laughing

ha ha

he is a maniac maniac

=============================

ha ha

so when you see

me laughing

do not wonder why

i am just being happy

=============================

~MAI~

~change name~

~true nv~

hey

as you might have

seen

or

encountered

=============================

i have

change

my blog

link

haha

=============================

but please dont change the link

just go to

my old

blog

truenv.blogspot

=============================

why

cause

the reason

im doin it is

to make it look chim

=============================

haha

i know

wth

but i am

so bored

=============================

and i change

a name i like

oh so

very much

haha

=============================

so please

link my old blog

and just

click on my new one

ok

=============================

~MAI~

~drama oh ma ma ole ole ah ah~

~true nv~

hey

as a loyal member

of my school

drama club

chey formal sey

=============================

i shall

dedicate this post

to my

dear

drama club

=============================

drama club

has achieved

bronze award

for last years

syf competition

=============================

a truly

exhausting

journey

i am honoured

to be part of

=============================

so

be apart

of ijc

drama club

and you wont regret

=============================

i hope

coz in drama

theres always a place

for geeks

no not geeks i mean you

=============================

so lets

cheer

drama oh ma ma

ole ole

ah ah

=============================

~MAI~

~new look new me~

~true nv~

hey

i wanna make

an announcement

which will come

next

=============================

my blog has a new

uplift

or look

so to say

like it

=============================

i will walk you

through it

shall we

great then

lets go

=============================

i have a new

background picture

yes say no

to hate

its not too late juz 08

=============================

haha

okae

now the lines

after each

paragraph

=============================

coloured lines

yes

we all love

colours

it relaxes the mind

=============================

hope you guys

love it

the last new thing is

me

see you all when i do

=============================

~MAI~

~running dry~

~true nv~

hey

im really

running dry of

ideas for

this black hole

=============================

nononooooooooo

its sucking me in

help help help

nooononnonooooooo

aaaaaaaaaarrrrrrrghhhhh

=============================

haha

lame

i know

but as i said

out of ideas

=============================

jeez

ppl like you

yes you

dont tag izit

gosh

=============================

haha

at least i would

know what to say

or think

for that matter

=============================

haha

coolies

is not cool

especially

coming from me

=============================

haha

ya coolies

i made it

did i

i donno

=============================

haha

made it

where

to the

end

=============================

~MAI~

~the night before~

~true nv~

hey

how u guys doin

happy i hope

happy all the time

make it happen

each day

we want to see the next day

better

bigger

than today

when it goes

wrong

we just go on with life

wishing

for better

well

lets see it at

a different angle

u ready

okay

relive

the night before

see how life goes on

how u went on to end the day

how full of hope u were

so take each step

while remembering your last

take a breath

to live the moment

seize it

chances

it comes and goes

dreams

it comes and goes

only when u allow it to

see

what you are capable of

be who u want to be

be better each day

you will never reach your peak

peak

theres no place for it

peak is for givers

givers that give nothing but hope

as all they do is give up hope

theres no stop

when u stop

u cant go back

nor can you move forward

it doesnt stop time

why

cause u stopped

standing still

life pass u by

u just stand still

so never stop

n u wont have a peak

move

so u see

and never miss a thing

its choice

ur choice

live it

own it

seize it

~MAI~

~first~

~true nv~

hey

welcome

to

a brand new year

2009

i've been crazy

since the stroke of midnight

announcing my first for

2009

haha

wad kinda first

well

first trip to the bathroom

first shower in the rain

first cycle while showering in the rain

first sleep

first blog post

first blog picture background

first trip to the beach

first step outside of my home

its crazy

irritating

but crazy nonetheless

the list goes on i tell you

wads your first

didnt thought of that

i bet

well

all i can say is

wait till nxt yr LOSER

haha

okay

that was my

first CAP word

haha stop i know

~MAI~